Misunderstanding.... Misinterpretation...

It seemed like this is a place for me to express my grievances as well... I am just so sorry for the things that happened. My heart felt heavy because of this. It is merely just a misunderstanding. But this is different. The feeling is still haunting me, even though after a early night sleep. I wished that things would be better.. I am missing those happy moments, those happy days and those happy memories. Will it come back? No one knows. What I know now is to live with a heavy heart...

This misunderstanding... misinterpretation... is a communication breakdown and 'perception'.. This is perceived differently from different ends.. I mean good but was perceived as bad. What is meant to be positive was taken as negative. White was mistaken as black.

Whatever it is,
Things done is being done.
Things said is said already.
Now have to look forward and wished for the best.

Judgement Card...

Prime message of the Judgment card. (This card deals with honesty.)
"Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment. And you can see forever." by Nancy Lopez, one of the most accomplished women of the professional golf scene.

Experiences in Life

Experiences are priceless and they are worth tonnes.
Its worth is beyond measures.

I just wonder why most people whine and complain when they experience.
Some will just get angry, mad, demoralized and lost when they are there.
Perhaps that is the norm of how life is - perhaps we might feel better?

I am amused on how we humans reacted to every experience that we are placed upon to experience. I am always pondering and thinking on why and how things happens and what are the learning experience that is to be derived from it.

I am experiencing things myself.. same as what everyone is going through..
Am confused at times on why and how things is how it is.. How things ended up to be and how it might have a turn and twist of brightness out of darkness..

I am wondering on how our life is forced to move and change too..
Try to question less and just experience it when it comes along..
That is one thing I will have to try..

why he is like this??? why???

why? why is it like this?
Am I getting too emotional or am I just too sensitive?
I want things to be good..
I intended things to be good..
But why is it happening like this?
Why is he reacting like this?
What does he wants?
Do we all owe him?

He really makes me very sad and unhappy..
Why is he soo harsh on us all?
Does he knows that we love him?
Does he knows that we wished him well?

Universe + God : Thank you...

yesterday, how could i put it...
it happened again..
deja vu happened again...
i am basically out of words and the only thing that i could do is to smile, smile and more smile laced with occasional laughs..
laughs that comes from the bottom of the heart - the smile of knowing, mischief and thankful for where i am heading to...

I have this funny feeling of happiness.
The strange feeling of happiness when one have found or discovered something.
The strange feeling of happiness when one was told of the same old thing and when one refuse to accept the fact due to avoidance or fear; the incident will occur over and over again.
The humorous click and sense of belonging towards the force or energy - making one move without them realizing it; teaching and guiding them along the way silently..

All I can say is - God, Thank You from the very bottom of my heart as an appreciation of gratitude. Universe + God, i love you and thank you again..
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i wonder why...

Here I am again.. Promised myself to write more.. LOL....
Will be pouring out my tots...

I wonder why... Why the sky is so high.. Why is sea is blue.. Why trees are green.. Why humans are so complicated.. Why human need to eat.. Why are we here??

I always wonder why... Going on wondering why people as in humans are such strange beings.. Going about wondering why when they becomes your friends, they tend to have some ownership over you... Going deep in thoughts on why it is so complicated...

Oh well, I am here to learn.. everyone is.. thus, I am still on an ongoing process of progressive learning.. and am pushing myself to learn fast.. So that I can understand..

Some people are so artificial too.. Why? I know we all live in an artificial world but that does not make us becoming one.. Hoped that the world will be a more loving and true to self and everyone..